This week has been very difficult for me. I have been waiting with baited breath for a response from Bank of America about whether our request for a mortgage loan modification has been approved.
This modification has been under review for at least 30 days, and during that time, we have had to fax and re-fax umpteen forms, tax returns, and paystubs. And we are waiting, and wondering: what we will do if our modification is denied?
We are already down to a bare bones budget. We eat a few meatless meals each week, shop for clothing and footwear needs at Salvation Army and Savers and hang clothes out to save on energy. We kept our thermostat at 65 this winter and at 60 upstairs.
So the only options would be to let the house go and find somewhere to rent (and with 3 children at home and a boatload of animals a very tall order, not to mention the cost) or I would have to get a job.
This would be somewhat traumatic to our family as I have been home with all five of my children since they were born. Two are grown now, but three are still at home. I also homeschool them. We are very close.
But I'm still praying hard for the modification, and if it doesn't come, well, we'll just go with the flow. I know God has a plan in all of this, even though it seems so difficult right now. Our family has been through difficult times before, and it always seemed that doors opened at all the right times to help us. I'm trusting on the hope that things will happen for us again.
But as these last days of waiting come to a close, I almost like being in limbo because I can't do anything right now. I am forced to wait and that is somehow comforting to me.
I will certainly keep you all updated as to what happens and I would appreciate any prayers you can spare for us!
Here are my top ten supplements I take every day to stay healthy (and happy)!
l. A multivitamin with iron (I like the gummie kind. They absorb better).
2. Fish oil (1000 mg.) for nerves and heart health
3. B Complex (gummies) for nerves and energy
4. Lecithin (400 mg.) for processing cholesterol
5. Ginger (500 mg.) for digestion and joints
6. D3 (1000 mg.) for immunity
7. L-Carnitine (100 mg.) for heart health
8. COQ10 (100 mg.) for heart health
9. Vitamin C (500 mg.) for immunity and allergies
l0. Hawthorne (500 mg.) for heart health
These are what I take on a daily basis. Please consult your own physician before adding any new supplements to your diet.
OK, I think I've had enough. Can I get off now?
Lately, I feel like I've been in one of those hamster thingies, you know, the exercise wheel where the hamster gets in and keeps running and going nowhere.
That's me.
Please let me off! But I'm not sure how to get off. I jump out of bed in the morning and somehow I'm right back on the wheel. I keep running, but I'm going nowhere. The day goes by in a blur and then suddenly, I'm back in front of my bathroom mirror, brushing my teeth before bed, and I can't, for the life of me, even count three things I may have accomplished that day. And then it's into bed to sleep and jump back on the wheel in the morning.
This problem seems to have become worse once I turned 50. I thought things slowed down then. Is it because of my children that I'm still homeschooling? Are they making my life fly by? Is it because I have so much to do? I almost feel dizzy the way time flies by. And I'm not sure how I can stop it or even slow it. I try to take a deep breath and relax, but that only helps for a moment, and then I'm off to the races again.
I thought by posting this, maybe some of you out there might have some suggestions. I'm open to try just about anything, jut let me get off this wheel!
