Friday, March 30, 2012

Waiting With Baited Breath

This week has been very difficult for me.  I have been waiting with baited breath for a response from Bank of America about whether our request for a mortgage loan modification has been approved.

This modification has been under review for at least 30 days, and during that time, we have had to fax and re-fax umpteen forms, tax returns, and paystubs.  And we are waiting, and wondering:  what we will do if our modification is denied?

We are already down to a bare bones budget.  We eat a few meatless meals each week, shop for clothing and footwear needs at Salvation Army and Savers and hang clothes out to save on energy.  We kept our thermostat at 65 this winter and at 60 upstairs. 

So the only options would be to let the house go and find somewhere to rent (and with 3 children at home and a boatload of animals a very tall order, not to mention the cost) or I would have to get a job.

This would be somewhat traumatic to our family as I have been home with all five of my children since they were born.  Two are grown now, but three are still at home.  I also homeschool them.  We are very close.

But I'm still praying hard for the modification, and if it doesn't come, well, we'll just go with the flow.  I know God has a plan in all of this,  even though it seems so difficult right now.  Our family has been through difficult times before, and it always seemed that doors opened at all the right times to help us.  I'm trusting on the hope that things will happen for us again.

But as these last days of waiting come to a close, I almost like being in limbo because I can't do anything right now.  I am forced to wait and that is somehow comforting to me.

I will certainly keep you all updated as to what happens and I would appreciate any prayers you can spare for us!


  1. One of my best friends is going through a very similar situation, and I think the waiting is the hardest part. At least once you know, one way or another, you can prepare and plan for whatever. Hoping all goes well for you, and you have peace about it all.

  2. I am praying for your family.

  3. Thank you so much Jamie and Jessica. I appreciate your prayers and kind thoughts!


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